my day was low key. had a visitor and hung around my house all day. Lacey came and got me at 6 and we went out. my mom was suspicious because I haven't hung out with her in so long. my mom thought I was lying about where I was going and what I was actually doing, which was going to the mall and going with her to babysit. she made me come home and shit. then my mom talked to Lacey and said where she was babysitting and my mom let me go. strange. maybe my mom was worried because she smelled cigarettes on me. I don't know. it was weird.
every part of me wants to get up and leave this place. I don't feel right anymore. I feel like a totally different person. I mean, I don't know, I just don't feel like myself. maybe I'm overreacting but honestly, I don't feel like myself. I just feel really down all the time and I have no idea why. maybe it's the thought of me moving in a month or the thought of me starting a whole new life where I make new friends and new memories. I honestly have no idea. I DO know that I hate feeling like this. this isn't me at all. bleh.
time to go read some more of my book and drift off to sleep
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